I’ll be the first to admit the title of this last blog before I compete in the Boston marathon could be taken the wrong way. I was reading this morning in 1 Corinthians and I stumbled across three words that I had read over before but today, for some reason, caught my attention in particular: “I die daily.” As I mulled over Paul’s words I realized that lessons learned aren’t always instantly absorbed and more often than not have to be re-visited often, even daily.
Writing a book has been an interesting process for me to undergo. Last year as I was writing each day’s entry, I found the process deeply therapeutic and felt that I was learning things about me, God, and how I wanted to experience running and life on an almost daily basis. The process I was going through felt very much life altering and that I would never fall back into my old ways. However, as I went through the editing process and read the book through a couple more times I was re-learning some the same lessons that I was previously sure would last a lifetime.
I like to think that I master life’s lessons and can move on to the next only to later become disappointed with myself that I fall back into the same bad way of living. This was my experience three weeks ago when I had a very poor race at the NYC half. I was bummed after the race that things hadn’t gone as I had hoped but I was more disappointed with my bad attitude. Why was I pouting? I had just come out with a book called, “Running with Joy,” yet here I was letting my circumstances dictate my joy.
As I have processed through the events of the NYC half marathon I realize that learning these lessons, as Paul wrote, is a daily process. It is easy to lose perspective and to let the tough events of life dictate my joy, when I am commanded in the Bible to “Rejoice in the Lord always.” It wasn’t that I didn’t learn life altering lessons leading up to last years Boston marathon, my problems come back when I don’t remind myself of these lessons and what I am going after on a regular basis, keeping them on the forefront of my mind and meditation on them.